Happy News

It’s been over a week since I got my ultrasound results and to be honest, it’s taking me a bit to let it all to sink in.  It’s excellent news.  A miracle actually.  I was diagnosed in January with a grade 4 anterior complete placenta previa…a worst case scenario.  This type doesn’t move, or so I was told.  My OB even said they generally don’t do a follow up ultrasound for my situation because nothing ever changes.  Then on top of that, it being anterior and me being at risk for it to very likely to be fused to my scar and hearing my OB prepare me to hemorrhage severely and maybe even spend time in the ICU.  This baby was also booked for a 35 week delivery which had me stressing for other reasons.  

At my last appointment, my OB came in the room and said she was completely dumbfounded.  She’s never seen anything like this.  My placenta moved up a whopping 6.5cm, it’s completely cleared my scar.  I almost don’t believe it after how stressful the past two months have been.  

I’m allowed to go for walks again, YAY!  But I’m still scared to go by myself just in case.  The best part is that we are back on track to have this baby on our original c-section date and unless something crazy comes up on the next ultrasound, he will be full term!  Tom said this all happened because he just booked a work trip right when the new baby date is…I also went and bought this baby a preemie outfit which I had to go back a couple days later to return.  

It’s all excellent news!  A complete miracle!  I wish I could embrace it, but I’m still just waiting for my next ultrasound and basically until this baby is here in my arms, then I’ll be able to truly breathe again!   My OB is having someone review my last two scans just to be sure this is actually all good news.  She is still going to take precautions for my c-section and have a super team in the OR just to be on the safe side which makes me feel good. Hopefully everything still looks good and the placenta hasn’t moved back by my next ultrasound, I make it to my new date without going into labor and we get to come home soon after it’s all over!

We are being cautious with our celebrating because we don’t want to get too excited in the case that things change yet again, which seems to happen at every doctors appointment and it’s become very hard to plan!  We are taking it one day at a time and for now it’s nice to be able relax a little bit and enjoy the last few weeks of pregnancy [minus the heartburn, rib kicks and sore back].  Enjoying the last few weeks of being a family of 4, sleeping through the [most] nights, and not juggling 2 babies yet!  

We are 8 weeks away from meeting baby.  So thankful for the extra weeks we’ve been given to cook this boy longer!  Thank you to all of our friends and family for the prayers, the positive vibes and kind words you sent to us.  

Banana Chocolate Pancakes 

Wylder is an exceptional eater.  He eats pretty much anything we serve him.  Not only that but he eats an adult portion often which has stumped me because I don’t know where he puts it and I never seem to make enough food to feed my hungry boys lately!

Wylder’s absolute favourite would be pancake day!  This takes place on average one to two times a week around here.  Sometimes it takes the place of lunch or dinner.  This baby just increased his pancake intake from 3 full pancakes to 4!  Nolan will ask if he can have any leftovers…it used to be the other way around.  


This happens to be our current favourite recipe!  It is totally kid friendly and easy to make, plus it’s an excellent source of protein, gluten free (& sugar free also if you omit the syrup, but coming from a pregnant gal, that just seems silly)!


Chocolate Banana Pancakes 

Ingredients:

  • 1 ripe banana, plus more to serve
  • 2 large eggs
  • 2 tbsp unsweetened cocoa powder
  • 2 tbsp nut butter (optional)
  • ½ tsp baking powder, aluminum-free
  • maple syrup, to serve

Directions:

Combine all of the ingredients in a mixing bowl. Whisk until there are minimal banana chunks. 

Spray skillet with oil and heat over medium heat. 

Once skillet is hot, pour in 2 tbsp of batter. Cool until bubbles appear on surface, then flip and cook other side. 

Serve with slices bananas and maple syrup.  

Enjoy!  

Baby Boy #3

I’m about to share something with the world that only a small percentage of people will be able to understand, let alone be able to relate to me right now.  I’ve never felt sorry for myself as I constantly seem to be faced with ‘big’ life battles because I know in the end, it has and does shape me as a person, but a break from hardship for more than a year would be so wonderful.  


This ‘surprise miracle’ pregnancy had me in shock until I was around 4 months pregnant and started to feel him kick.  At that time, I began dreaming about how special bringing home yet another beautiful baby boy will be for us.  I began loving the idea of being pregnant again.  At 22 weeks I had my routine ultrasound where we were told that baby is absolutely perfect, but I was diagnosed with complete placenta previa.  [This means that my placenta is completely covering and touching my cervix.  I am at risk for bleeding every day until I deliver, which is a major risk to my health.  The risk for baby is a premature birth which comes with several long term effects.  If I do start bleeding, I’ll be rushed to the hospital and potentially kept there until it’s safe to deliver, but if the bleeding is too severe, they would need to do an emergency c-section].  

I was told to stop exercising, lifting heavy things, and to ‘take it easy’.  No travel,   limited standing, no lifting heavy grocery bags or large loads of laundry.  The OB said that due to the risk of me bleeding too much during my c-section , she will need to do it at 36 weeks.  I felt sad and scared.  This led me to the wonderful world of Google where I learned too much.  Not only am I already high risk but my placenta is anterior, therefore sitting on my previous c-section scar.  This gives me a 25% chance of it fusing to my scar tissue.  The placenta looks for a blood source and then attaches and can grow into the scar tissue and uterus (even worse it can invade ones bladder, ovaries, bowel but this is a very extreme case).  This is called Accreta.  Now my life is actually at risk because this condition can cause severe hemorrhaging at birth, and in many cases they don’t know you have accreta until they are in there, which is now my situation.  If it’s bad enough, I’ll have a hysterectomy right then and there so I’m preparing my heart for the possibility that this will be our last baby.  

I was sent for an MRI to see if they could see accreta.  Unfortunately my results were inconclusive.  It took weeks to finally see my OB.  I had seen two doctors before but she gave me the nitty gritty details that in turn flooded me with fear due to the many many unknowns that come along with complete placenta previa.  I’m being watched closely.  Due to the risk of them discovering accreta, I’ll now be delivering at 35 weeks so I am praying baby boy is a big strong beef cake like Wylder was so we can hopefully avoid a long nicu stay if any at all. I’ll have an extra large surgical team in the room.  Very likely, I’ll require blood transfusions which will be ready and waiting.  If they can’t control the bleeding I will spend some time in ICU…even the thought of this brings me to tears.  Although, maybe this is best case scenario, to make it to my date with no bleeds and have a team fully prepped and ready to do everything they can for my life and baby’s.  My doctor said “we prepare for the worst so we can expect the best”.

I’ve only shared this with a very small group of people.  And truthfully, I’m not sure anyone can really understand the severity of the situation or know the fear I’ve had ever since I found out.  There are so many unknowns that can happen from now until even after he is born. I feel scared to walk too long in the grocery store or move too fast playing with Wylder.  The joy of my pregnancy feels like it was stolen from me and I can’t wait for this all to be behind us.  

I’ve been pretty strong with a few big cries here and there.  Although, writing this has me in a puddle of my own tears that won’t seem to stop.  I’m realizing just how blessed I’ve been to have TWO worry free pregnancies and perfectly healthy boys.  I think about how funny it is that we wanted a baby so badly, and here are given this gift and what I want more than ever is to be at the end because I feel like a ticking time bomb hoping nothing will go wrong.  

Tom happens to be in Khazakstan for work at the moment.  It’s extra scary not having him here right now because I do feel like I need him more than ever.  He’ll be going away again shortly after he gets home but thankfully my mom and step-dad are coming to help which I’m so looking forward to!  Having a travelling husband is hard when life is smooth sailing, but when it’s not, my heart misses that man 10,000 times more than usual.  

My eye is on the prize.  Baby will be here in less than 8 weeks.  I have another ultrasound in a couple weeks which will give us an idea of how big baby is and possibly if my placenta has moved.  This would be amazing news and a total miracle which would also allow us to let this baby cook a little longer but my doctor said the chances are very low!  As most of you may know, this isn’t our first big struggle.  I’m trying to stay positive and focus on the good that is in front of me and take it all one day at a time. This too shall pass and I’m dreaming of this summer…holding this baby on a hot summers day with my husband by my side as we sip on a crisp white wine and watch Nolan teach Wylder how to throw a football!

Prayer and the support of loved ones is my solace right now.  My husband is the best person I ever could have chosen as a partner to walk through life with.  All of our struggles have only shown the depth of love we have for each other. He is a huge reason I laugh when things are tough!  His love for me is strength and I’m so thankful for him and my boys, I am truly blessed.  

I’m back…

After an unintentional several month long hiatus from one of the things I love most…[blogging]…I’m back.

Life has been busy as most of you may know.  Our first year with Wylder in our lives has been crazy.  Tom has been so busy at work and travelling, which I don’t love but the mans gotta make the paper (what he tells me).  Juggling nap times around school pick ups, track & field, basketball & football games and practices has been a challenge.  Trying to keep my house clean, cook healthy(ish) meals for the family, still working part time and now, pregnant and chasing a one year old around the house.  Me?  Tired?  Uh, YEAH.

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It’s been good though.  Actually it’s been great!  Wylder has brought our family so close.  I swear we all smile and laugh more than ever with this little guy around.  And now, only 8 weeks away, we will be welcoming yet another little man into our world!  I still can’t even believe it, regardless of the rapidly increasing belly expansion and constant baby kicks, I sometimes still feel like it’s make belief.

For all the people out there assuming we planned this baby and pursued fertility treatments to get here…boy are you are wrong!  That was our intent.  We expected to go down the same hard road to have another baby as we did with Wylder and planned to start treatments this June, but God had other plans for us!

I’m still not sure what prompted me to actually do a test but one day I picked up 3 from the dollar store while Tom was out of town.  We were going to Vegas a couple weeks later for our first trip away since Wylder was born, so I guess it wouldn’t hurt to check.  I forgot about the tests, treated myself to some fine red wine.  That week, I realized I had achieved my pre-baby weight and was bragging to my girlfriend.  In retrospect, I was losing my mind.  I showed up at the wrong schools to watch Nolan’s football games a couple times, could never find my keys and I also got my days and times wrong for appointments which I’ve never done [but continue to do still, baby brain is a thing!].  Two days later I did the test.  A FREAKING POSITIVE TEST!   I couldn’t believe my eyes.  I think I stopped breathing and broke into a cold sweat as my heart started racing…and I texted Tom… “OMG!  I think I’m pregnant.  How did this even happen?!”  He didn’t believe me.  After all three positive tests and even a trip to the doctor for another positive test, he still didn’t believe me!  I didn’t believe me!  We weren’t trying and having a new baby while we already have a baby wasn’t exactly on our bucket list!  Needless to say, this baby is a giant surprise and blessing and we are all looking forward to meeting him!  That being said, I’d be lying if I said  I’m not nervous to have a baby and a 15 month old.  I’ve basically been pregnant for over 2 years…which is just how I feel so I’m really looking forward to feeling like myself again.

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Oh, you’re wondering how Nolan took the news?  Right.  We didn’t tell him straight away, but when we did, this was his response:

“WHAT WERE YOU GUYS THINKING?  YOU LIED TO ME!  YOU SAID YOU WOULDNT HAVE ANOTHER BABY RIGHT AWAY!  WHO’S GOING TO DRIVE ME EVERYWHERE?!  This is going to be so crazy for you guys…”

And flashback to me telling people I was pregnant in high school…  He took the news really well.  Ha!  It’s going to be great.  Nolan is the best big brother.  He is such a big help to me and is always willing to watch the baby or calm him down when I’m too exhausted to do it.  Him and Wylder absolutely adore each other, so I’m sure this new baby boy will capture Nolan’s heart the same way that Wylder has.

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So there you have it.  This next year will be an adventure.  I know I’ll just do it and Nolan is right, it is going to be very crazy.  So if you see me out and I look disheveled and run down, just love me and give me all your cheater tips to help me look pretty and pretend I have my crap together, because we all know how easy it will be to find time to shower…

Thanks in advance.

xo.